شخص ثالث

احساس، احساس وظیفه رو درک نمیکنه، ولی عقل میکنه.

عجیبه! عقل باید احساس کنه!

یا چیز دیگس که احساس وظیفه رو درک میکنه؟

dust off within

Eli would say: beauty comes from within.

she's right.

think about Sohrab's line "my sister became beautiful" for a minute.

see? right?

in my opinion, Sohrab is seeing some virtue emerging from her inner character that makes her beautiful.

that must be the next post in Sohrabitar ^_^

plight your psyche

if there were a zone where "truth" would be laid bare,

(truth about everything, your fears, desires, beliefs, loves, deeds, etc.)

and you lose every makeups from rouge to beauty surgeries, even your clothes, except for private parts, are taken off,

in one word, the zone reveals you.

plus, in the zone you get what you truly wish for. even if your true wishes are buried under myriad of layers inside your unconscious thoughts, psyche, heart or everywhere, they are revealed in the zone and are granted.

1. would you tread in?

2. with whose companion would you dare to get in?

3. what does it take to go there?

do you know you [don't] love your mate? hum

once I asked my married friends about their lives.

they said they're happy and would be happier if they had better incomes.

I asked them about their wives, there was a consensus that they're in a great relationship and they loved their spouses.

then I asked the tricky, hypothetical question:

if you come back to the time when you're not married yet, would you still marry the same person you have married?

there was the second consensus: we would choose a different path of life and hence we might have different wives!

my thought?

obviously they did not love their wives also it was not the life they had in mind before getting married. and when they said they loved their wives, they just felt it's incumbent upon them to be in love with their mates. and I think they, just like other people, mistook love for responsibility.

moreover, they were not able to see that they did not love their mates which is not a big deal, but their inability to see and admit it, can turn into a real situation.

?was it real

to me it seems that the US has done it in collusion with Iran.

lets give it some perspective:

America sends a message to Iran that Israel will not back off this war until they are sure that your nuclear sites are all destroyed.

so, let us Americans come and drop some bombs on your nuclear sites after you have evacuated them just to make Israelis happy because we have promised them that we will help.

then, in retaliation we let you fire a few missiles to one of our military sites but after you have noticed us so that we do not suffer any life harm.

after this, Israelis will become satisfied with having done the mission of destroying your nuclear facilities which makes us able to force them for a dirty ceasefire.

this is just a conjecture but it can be proved true if Iran does not pound the US bases anymore and no one of American troops dies as well as the Iran-Israel war ends very soon.

how's that? huh?

we'll see...

who is the last of us

some argue that Ellie is the last of us or Joel is or even symbolically the relationship of Joel and Ellie is.

they say Ellie is the last hope to make a cure or Joel is the last kind of people who emphasizes on love etc.

but in my view, which I guess no one likes it, Abby is the last of us actually the last of fireflies who have been trying to find a cure

her father were the last person who could make a cure by performing surgery on Ellie's brain but now he is dead so she is what left of him

she is the last among her friends who were all killed

she might be the last of WLF soldiers who were fighting the Scars in a non-ending war so we can assume all of them would die

she killed Joel the protagonist of the first part and spared Ellie and Dina and shot to kill Tommy but it was not his time and finally she survived every challenge and danger in the most mysterious ways

she represents both the failure and future of humanity, failure because of all the losses she suffers and future because she is the only person who could become the one able to make a cure

Abby is the only person who has the background and the purpose to become a surgeon like her father and become the only hope for humanity to make a cure

yeah, in my view Abby is the last of us, the last surgeon firefly who could make a cure

the best option we are deprived of

so now that I cannot make any change to my past I need just one thing: a break.

a pause from life.

just for some years.

oh man, what I wouldn't give to die for some years and then come back to life.

تو هم همینطوری

داشتم کتاب «فلسفه تنهایی» رو میخوندم

این کتاب رو لارس اسوندس نوشته

در اولین جمله از فصل دوم کتاب اینو نوشته: تنهایی هم جبنه شناختی دارد و هم وجهی عاطفی و احساسی.

که به نظرم اومد ترجمه ایراد داره. البته قبلش هم مواردی بود که حس میکردم ترجمه ایراد داره.

در همین صفحه قبل از شروع مطلب فصل دوم، یه نقل قول از کتاب دیگه‌ای آورده شده که اونم باهاش مشکل داشتم. همچنین اسم کتابی که ازش نقل شده که نوشته «چشم غربی» که ترجمه Under Western Eyes هستش و به نظرم باید ترجمه بشه به «در برابر دیدگان غرب» یا همچین چیزی با این مفهوم.

بگذریم، پی دی اف زبان انگلیسیش رو داشتم و چک کردم و خب دیگه صرف نظر کردم از ادامه خوندن کتاب ترجمه شده. حالا پرینتش میکنم و نسخه اصلیش رو میخونم.

خواستم بگم (البته هنوز کتاب رو نخوندم) نظرم اینه که تو تنها هستی وقتی که کتابی میخونی که دیگرانی که میشناسی نمیخونن، موزیکی گوش میدی که دیگرانی که میشناسی گوش نمیکنن، فیلمی میبینی که دیگرانی که میشناسی نمیبینن. اینها و خیلی چیزهای دیگه که میشه بین دو یا چند نفر مشترک باشه، به نظر من، به درک متقابل کمک میکنه و ارتقا میده. و من فکر میکنم هر چقدر درک متقابل ارتقا پیدا کنه تنهایی تضعیف میشه.

یه موقعی اینجا گفتم بین شاید دو هزار نفر آدم طرفای پل خواجو قدم میزدم و با گوشیم داشتم یکی از سوناتاهای باخ رو گوش میکردم که یهو خودمو خیلی جداشده از جامعه دوروبرم دیدم. آخه کی میاد پل خواجو باخ گوش کنه!؟ نه از این باب که مثلا من بیشتر میفهمم یا خفن‌ترم و این چیزا، بلکه از این باب که چطور میشه تنهایی رو حس کنی. جالب اینه که تنهایی یکی از وضعیت‌هاییه که احتمالا همه مردم دنیا بارها احساسش کردن و از این بابت با هم وجه مشترک دارن!

next major movement

what's your prognostication of the next major fight in the world?

a war between superpowers?

war between Jews+Christians and Muslims?

or just a virus will come like Corona and a major portion of people will die?

my thought?

I think there will be a fight between classes of people in all places of the world.

سه خردبینی

شرق اندوه نهاد بشری

فصل ولگردی در کوچه زن

بوی تنهایی در کوچه فصل

به نظرم به حقیقت پیوستند و هر سه با هم در یک ارتباط علی معلولی قرار دارن بطوریکه وسطی عامل سومیه.

the only fit reason

why do you help me?

-because, I can.

refuse to grow up

one of my latest findings is that I have a tendency not to let my puerile world go away.

this "tendency" I do not know is from a fear or love or belief.

also I cannot see it clearly whether I got caught up in it or I am drawn to it.

do you have such a feeling about your childhood and your childish world?

for example, when I'm walking on a sidewalk I like to skip and I do it but people, in the best case, see it weird.

that's not a vital thing but there is some vital ones

for example, I do not want to get married having kids and so on

I see it as a path that starts at the end of my childish path =( which is gonna bind me to live as an old man! and takes my freedom and my emotions.

تو بگو مرز من کجاس

شرارت چه حدی داره؟

نیکی چی؟ نیکی چه حدی داره؟

ولخرجی چی؟

نگرانی؟

و هر چیز دیگه‌ای، چه حدی داره؟ کرانش کجاست؟

کجا شرارت و کجا نیکی و ولخرجی و نگرانی و... تموم میشن؟

میگن «صبر آدم هم حدی داره». راس میگن؟ آیا واقعا حد داره؟ کران داره؟ مرزی که اونجا صبر تمام میشه کجاس؟

تو دنیایی که نه کوچکترین مقدارش و نه اندازه خودش کران داره، چطور این چیزها کران دارن و حد دارن؟

من کجا تمام میشم؟ 

چیزهای من چی، اونها کجا تمام میشن؟

ایمان من کجا به غایت میرسه؟

وقتی چیزی کران داشته باشه، تمام شدنیه. 

یه جایی به ته بن‌بست میخوره دیگه.

پس اگه یکی از این چیزها تمام شدنی بود آنگاه «آدم باید اکوی یکی از اینها رو در طول تاریخ شنیده باشه».

شنیدن اکو یعنی در طول تاریخ کسی به غایت یکی از این چیزها رسیده باشه. 

مثلا بگن سیروس به ولخرجی پایان داد یا رسید به انتهاش یا به حد و کرانش رسید.

ولی تاریخ از چنین چیزی تهی هستش.

پس دستاورد بشر چی بوده؟! این همه آدم اومدن و رفتن، چی به یادگار گذاشتن؟ صنعت؟ پول؟ رفاه؟