free but not joined

just when I had to start working on my thesis I was haunted with this thought that my thesis should be something helpful to humanity.

well, this is an abstract wish.

every person may have their own definition of being helpful and of being helpful to humanity.

see there are two things intertwined together although this part is not the mess but being helpful.

so I sought solace in religion specifically monotheism and in a nutshell I found Curie's symmetry principle as my resort.

the symmetry principle talks about how existence of things depends on having an asymmetry.

it is a long philosophical reasoning to show how symmetry leads to monotheism which I'm not gonna explain.

anyway, I passed the ghastly ordeal of my thesis resorting to Curie's symmetry principle.

I was happy, truly I tasted the barest inkling of happiness in a very short, fleeting moment.

it's gone, far far ago.

lets not judging the helpfulness of my thesis now because I can't analyze it. lets say it was helpful by 50 percent of chance.

I guess if it was helpful I would not write this now, however, lets move on to our current problem.

that Curie's principle does not work anymore for me to continue on this journey.

desperate in need of a path led to something helpful, is me.

this is my situation.

am I too obsessed with the helpfulness idea?

if so, what should be left of us after we finish our journey on the earth? just descendants? or, competent descendants?

not bad! I had not thought about that! weird but prospect of a solution.

I did think about having competent descendants but not as a path to tread on for my whole life journey rather as module as a part of this journey, actually as a must.

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این همه منم منم

ما حتی خودمون رو هم نمیشناسیم =))

کامل کیست؟

هیچ ماهی هرگز

هزار و یک گره رودخانه را نگشود.

فکر اونها نتیجه داد و محمد نتونست علی رو در عمل جانشین خودش بکنه.

فکر فرزند نابغه نتیجه داد و علی نتونست صفین رو با پیروزی ترک کنه.

این دو تا شاهد کفایت نمیکنه؟

به نظر من میکنه.

فلذا، چه باید کرد؟ من در که لخت‌ترین موسم بی‌چهچه سال تشنه زمزمه‌ام؟

منم باید روی تنهاییم نقشه مرغی بکشم؟

don't mistake my silence for anything

I'm not tired, right?

I just feel dumbstruck by the vastness of the world.

how ignorant I was when I thought of myself something more than an epsilon.

I've always used this example that a cow is a cow nothing more or less, in contrary to human that has never been the thing they should be.

when I'm not portraying the thing which I should be, it means that I am less than a plankton; of course in the best case scenario, since I could be evil which is not too far, in this era of iniquity, for any human being to be an epitome of it.

the point is, I want to be as human as a cow is a cow.

هل من مبارز

از گردش گردون پروای هلاکم نیست.

turning the globe around to frighten me of doom, "as if I appalled"

in case of us, I am seriously concerned with the scenario in which the last line would be: "as if I cared"

و بعد مصداق «تو آنی که آوردی آن تخم زفتی به بار» بشیم.

هشدار

عملی که موجب غرور شود افساری است بر گردن که در دست شیطان است.