what does a man seeking a woman think of her? part 2

our response to intrinsic calls is not limited to finding a companion and although we always contemplate on our next act most of the time we get pulled by our needs resulting compulsive acts!
take a look at your life, for example, how many decisions have you made so far? what percent of them were made without the slightest pull from your intrinsic needs?
again, I'm not disapproving. I'm the one who has done almost everything in favor of intrinsic values; based on his own view.
let me ask you another question: what does make you happy when you're in the death bed? and let me guess: "results". if you see results in your lived life at the time of death you embrace the soil with happiness; and vice versa.
that question was the introduction to this one: how are you gonna evaluate the results? isn't it based on what you have learned in your life; upon the foundation made by your family in your early life?
see we get restricted to a lifestyle which makes our destiny and at the end we analyze and score our effort based on the values defined by that lifestyle which is in turn a web of decisions and actions. 

and you may guess what percent of this web are made because of intrinsic pulls.

to be continued...

what does a man seeking a woman think of her? part 1

the intrinsic pull toward having a companion is not a thing that one can deny, including me.
I went down that road at the very beginning state of shaping my individual character, say early 20s.
(it was terrifically enjoyable and it was when I got the barest inkling of what solace would be, though I did not take it).
in general, some men are seeking a "wife", some a "doll" and others either going after someone in between or not having made up their mind yet. this classification can be applicable to, say, 80 percent of men.
to my observations, I think most of the men seeking a relationship are actually being pulled by the intrinsic call to find someone besides themselves ( what's happening in practice is different from having a companion and is inferior), though this call might be totally vague to them.
I'm not gonna take a dim view of it or condemn it, I'm just saying how strong this pull I see from where I'm standing. actually I cut men some slacks here.

من مهمترم یا چی؟

هیچ فکر کردید که خدا کیه؟

مگه نمیگیم که مثلا اصغر آقا قصاب آدم با انصافیه؟ این توصیف اصغرآقاست دیگه.

همینطور وقتی میگیم خدا مثلا کریمه یا با سایر صفات ازش یاد میکنیم خب این توصیف خداست.

چرا ما برای اینکه صفات خدا رو درک کنیم چیزی که باعث میشه خدا رو بهتر بشناسیم وقت نمیذاریم؟

آیا خدا از هر چیز دیگه‌ای برای ما اهمیتش بیشتر نیست؟ هوم؟

میگن آدم خودشو بشناسه خدا رو شناخته.

خب مگه دنیا رو برای خودمون نمیخوایم؟ مگه این نیست که کوچکترین عملمون و حتی نفس کشیدنمون هم برای خودمونه؟ خب این خودمون که رکن اعمال و اهداف ماست آیا ارزش شناختن نداره؟

عجیبه!

این همه منم منم

ما حتی خودمون رو هم نمیشناسیم =))

وقتی دست داری ولی قلم رو با پا میگیری

مسلمانها تو ایران شاید بهترین دین رو داشته باشند

ولی قطعا جاهلانه‌ترین عادات و رسم و رسوم رو دارن

چیزایی که رسوم اعراب بوده اما تحت نام احکام اسلامی به خوردشون داده شده

دست کم دو سوم این رسوم یا اساسن اشتباهن یا مطابق زندگی امروزی و ایرانی نیستن

سردمداران دین هم  قائل به بروزرسانی احکام عمومی نیستن

اینها نهایتا در بهترین حالت عملکردشون حکم ام‌پی‌تری پلیر رو داره که احکام رو حفظ کردن و از بر میخونن

عالم دین مثل عالم مهندسی مکانیک مثل عالم پزشکی و سایر علوم وقتی بروز نشه وقتی نتونه شرایط و اقتضائات روز و جدید رو در علم خودش اعمال کنه مسلما فاقد ارزش کاربردیه

فرض کن الان میخواستن با علم 30 سال پیش خودرو تولید کنن

واقعا فکر میکنید احکام (نه ایدئولوژی) 10 -15 قرن قبل هنوز کارآمد باشه؟ اونم برای هر جامعه‌ای؟

تازه یکیشون میگفت کاش همون احکام بدون دستکاری تجویز و اجرا میشد!

imperishable

there is only one true way to achieve a cherished place among people and it is to make a person out of yourself whom is cherished in your inside.

.

.

.

... and yet, I pretend.

?any other direction

For so long I have been thinking about getting a phd and now that I have applied to some universities I weirdly do not pursue it anymore!

You may not believe that it's been quite a while that I've got answer from UMass Amherst but I haven't checked it yet!!!

Not even checking the answer to my application is what? Weird? Stupid?

Who the heck am I?!

Where am I?

What am I thinking?!

Am I thinking at all?

I don't wanna do a phd anymore, but why? why? After these many years!!!

I just know I must have a problem!

let me join

I feel blue,

oddly, I feel blue,

and nothing,

not even these fragrant minutes,

turning off on the citrus branches;

not this word's honesty,

lying in the silence between this gillyflower's two leaves;

no, nothing would disenthrall me from the invasion of environs' emptiness.

yet I am still looking forward to getting all this behind.

be sure! without your help I would fall;

I would fall from the firmament of being-

like a latent star aborted in its nascent moments.

without your help means not having your hand in mine.

economy

Higgins: do you mean to say you would sell your daughter for 50 pounds? 

Pickering: have you no morals, man?

Doolittle: no, no. I cant afford them.

Doolittle: neither could you if you were as poor as me.

My Fair Lady 1964.

Impossibility

How do we fight someone whose strength we do not understand?

The Message

you're able while I'm the who's supposed to go

I beg you for nothing the Almighty, but I expect myself to achieve everything.

Here, you brought me to.

I appreciate.

The Irony of Balance

don't open your heart to me

Music is especially dangerous to human emotions.

Good Ones.

the conversation keeps going on

Distance means what you are hearing is not what I am saying.

The Famous RGB