dust off within

Eli would say: beauty comes from within.

she's right.

think about Sohrab's line "my sister became beautiful" for a minute.

see? right?

in my opinion, Sohrab is seeing some virtue emerging from her inner character that makes her beautiful.

that must be the next post in Sohrabitar ^_^

plight your psyche

if there were a zone where "truth" would be laid bare,

(truth about everything, your fears, desires, beliefs, loves, deeds, etc.)

and you lose every makeups from rouge to beauty surgeries, even your clothes, except for private parts, are taken off,

in one word, the zone reveals you.

plus, in the zone you get what you truly wish for. even if your true wishes are buried under myriad of layers inside your unconscious thoughts, psyche, heart or everywhere, they are revealed in the zone and are granted.

1. would you tread in?

2. with whose companion would you dare to get in?

3. what does it take to go there?

see? learning how to fly is worthwhile

is there a race between us?

are your power and my patience competing? 

and for what? 

to prove you're greater? but, that's already given!

me to bow? to beg? didn't I do that?

to find out where I'll come apart? I'm so flat that cannot be crushed anymore!

to see how relentlessly I might try to make it to your hands?

in that case desperation is trying to pin perseverance down.

a little more of help? -implores, perseverance!

it did not work

I had the notion that in the presence of geraniums ruthlessness would melt away.

robbed of peace

no wonder if your tresses turn to the health bandit

for if you were the brigand, hundreds of caravans could be raided

I liked that ^_^

do you know you [don't] love your mate? hum

once I asked my married friends about their lives.

they said they're happy and would be happier if they had better incomes.

I asked them about their wives, there was a consensus that they're in a great relationship and they loved their spouses.

then I asked the tricky, hypothetical question:

if you come back to the time when you're not married yet, would you still marry the same person you have married?

there was the second consensus: we would choose a different path of life and hence we might have different wives!

my thought?

obviously they did not love their wives also it was not the life they had in mind before getting married. and when they said they loved their wives, they just felt it's incumbent upon them to be in love with their mates. and I think they, just like other people, mistook love for responsibility.

moreover, they were not able to see that they did not love their mates which is not a big deal, but their inability to see and admit it, can turn into a real situation.

to be or not to be the pilot - 1

Are we the ones who steer the boat as we sail down the river of dreams?

or we're just passengers on that boat?

I'm wondering if there is any way that we can take control of our dreams.

surely there must a way, because sometimes we dream about things that we have extreme feelings for them.

in those cases, we are, to some extent, in control of our dreams! although unconsciously.

we have feelings for something and then we dream about it, right?

I like to have the ability to choose whether tonight I would be the captain or just a passenger ^_^

what if it had not happened? hum

A gleaner forever wandered past my way, and beside me, the cluster of secret slipped through his hand.

nothing is accidental. 

the so-called "accident" needs be taken seriously! 

we certainly do not know their cause or goal but we had better consider the likely consequences of them in either way; whether they would happen or wouldn't.

not a to and fro

humanity is moving backward, I'm afraid, inching inhumanity forward.

dishonor is close

at least it's been proved who is the coward.

the one who preaches to his people about supreme sacrifice while does not dare to come out of his hiding.

my advice? you should have never been ensconced. you should have never sought safety.

it is probable that he has died or badly injured so he cannot show himself or his hiding is an attempt in preventing this war from going on for a long time, so in such cases he is not coward.

however, my analysis is that the system has changed its direction since observing ineffectiveness of their beloved president which made them plan and implement his assassination.

so do not get surprised if you see radical changes in the future.

?was it real

to me it seems that the US has done it in collusion with Iran.

lets give it some perspective:

America sends a message to Iran that Israel will not back off this war until they are sure that your nuclear sites are all destroyed.

so, let us Americans come and drop some bombs on your nuclear sites after you have evacuated them just to make Israelis happy because we have promised them that we will help.

then, in retaliation we let you fire a few missiles to one of our military sites but after you have noticed us so that we do not suffer any life harm.

after this, Israelis will become satisfied with having done the mission of destroying your nuclear facilities which makes us able to force them for a dirty ceasefire.

this is just a conjecture but it can be proved true if Iran does not pound the US bases anymore and no one of American troops dies as well as the Iran-Israel war ends very soon.

how's that? huh?

we'll see...

who is the last of us

some argue that Ellie is the last of us or Joel is or even symbolically the relationship of Joel and Ellie is.

they say Ellie is the last hope to make a cure or Joel is the last kind of people who emphasizes on love etc.

but in my view, which I guess no one likes it, Abby is the last of us actually the last of fireflies who have been trying to find a cure

her father were the last person who could make a cure by performing surgery on Ellie's brain but now he is dead so she is what left of him

she is the last among her friends who were all killed

she might be the last of WLF soldiers who were fighting the Scars in a non-ending war so we can assume all of them would die

she killed Joel the protagonist of the first part and spared Ellie and Dina and shot to kill Tommy but it was not his time and finally she survived every challenge and danger in the most mysterious ways

she represents both the failure and future of humanity, failure because of all the losses she suffers and future because she is the only person who could become the one able to make a cure

Abby is the only person who has the background and the purpose to become a surgeon like her father and become the only hope for humanity to make a cure

yeah, in my view Abby is the last of us, the last surgeon firefly who could make a cure

the best option we are deprived of

so now that I cannot make any change to my past I need just one thing: a break.

a pause from life.

just for some years.

oh man, what I wouldn't give to die for some years and then come back to life.